To our little baby we lost...

This past March we would have welcomed our first little one into our crazy amazing world. Sadly about eight weeks into the baby's life she was comforted in the arms of her Creator. I was convinced she was a girl and although we have never given her a name, her life is most precious to us and we remember her.

Hello Sweetheart,

By this point you are about 4 months old. To be honest, I think it's been hard to give you a name, but I trust that Jesus has given you the most amazing name ever! I can't wait to find out what that is. I do imagine what you must look like though. I imagine you with dark curly hair and long eye lashes that resemble your Daddy's. I bet you have an adorable giggle and a smile to match. Someday I'll experience your joy.

You have a little sister coming in just a few short months. I'm sure you would have both been good buds, enjoying doing girly things with mom and hunting and fishing with dad. I can just picture you learning how to swim with Dad. He's more gifted with that than I am! But I'd love to show you how to cook and bake yummy things.

We're excited for Adelynne to get here, but we want you to know that you will always hold our hearts. Daddy and I didn't want to see you go. We pleaded with God and held onto hope. But ultimately your home became heaven. It was such a crazy emotional time when  we lost you. We had so many questions and didn't understand why. Sometimes I still struggle to know why you had to go. It was hard to explain to people what had happened when all I wanted to do was grieve you and hold you. I still get fearful of what may happen with Adelynne and am praying for the next few weeks to go smoothly.

You taught us hope in what is to come and peace in the current trials. I don't know if anything in my life has been harder than loosing you. Your daddy and I hope to see you again someday but until then, I just want you to know that we love you with all of our hearts and are so thankful for your little life, even though we didn't get you for very long. Your visit was well worth it.

Love, momma