Two More Months...

Two more months. Just two more months until our little Adelynne Rose is with us. As she squirmes around in my belly, I'm both overjoyed and so freaked out of my mind. Is this really happening? This has been a pregnancy governed by both fear of the unknown and moments of carefully tread upon glee. I've had so many mixed emotions. After loosing our first little one last August, this August we hope to welcome our second. We've decided to call her Adelynne Rose. The "Lynne" is from Josh's mom's middle name and the Rose is from my middle name, named after my Grandma (Sittee Rose). We love the name, we love the flutters and kicks and we're loving getting all ready for her big arrival.

For me, it's also been a few months of wondering what the rest of my life will look like. I feel I've been given many "practice" moments of motherhood thus far. Sometimes I forget that I've already had a little 4 year old whose called us mom and dad, who lived in our home and truly was one of us. Sometimes I also forget the many teens we have taken under our wing, some who have even called us mom and dad and who have more then felt like our own. And, if you've read my recent posts, we even have a 9 month old beagle who in some ways has also been preparing us for parenthood.

I've heard the stories, good and bad. I've read the statistics. Now it's all starting to become a reality. In just two months time we'll experience the sleepless nights, the countless diaper changes, the coos, the baby smells and snuggles. There's much I feel we don't know how to prepare for. But doesn't ever new parent of an infant feel like that?

I'm so much of the mindset of live and learn. It's hard to hear "Just you wait till you have kids" so much that you feel you can anticipate the comment coming. In all honesty, I'm a bit tired of the "just you waits." God knows that I am beyond excited, but he also knows what I don't know and I think he's countin' on teachin' me some good lessons in the process. Sure many parents experience the same things, but some process them differently. Not every situation is the same. Nothing is a cookie cutter experience exactly when it comes to parenthood, or so I believe. I'm looking forward to learning bits of wisdom from current parents but I'm also stoked about making this experience our own. Not everyone will agree with how we parent, but that's okay. I don't agree with every parent.

Here's to the process and the lessons to be learned!